No filter, no shame… and I dare you to say you don’t question the same…
Would I rather hang out with atheists, agnostics, non-christians, or a flat out stranger than the Christians of today? Yes I would. And I bet Jesus would too. As a matter of fact when he walked this earth that’s exactly what he did..
Today’s Christian is the modern- day Pharisee….
“You hypocrites!”…..
Why do you think so many people turn away from the faith? It’s sure not because of God or Jesus; it’s because of Christians and modern day white Protestant Christianity.
Are most Christians judgmental hypocrites? (I would say yes)
Do I denounce Christ? (No). Do I denounce Christianity? (YES)
Is Christ embarrassed of modern day Christianity? (I think so.)
“The great white hope” sent to a third world country to spread a message of whiteness – whoops
excuse me – hope, to the sad sad lowly communities…
You’re not a saint – you’re a Sinner. So get in line with the rest of us.
“Ooooh help me, I’m poor….”
Nah, if your Christians eyes were opened you would see how they’re the rich ones focusing on what matters, revering the word of God, and you’re the poor ones…
Poor in spirit…
Poor in materialism….
Poor in distraction…
Poor.
I’m poor in this way too, most of us are, whether you’re Christian or not.
Questioning…
Is God really angry at me if I say “fuck” when I’m angry? It’s not
Like I’m saying fuck you, or fuck God
Is God angry with the woman getting the abortion, or the person judging the woman for getting an abortion? (I believe the latter is true)
“Whoever is without sin, cast the first stone…”
Why the hell do Christians paint Jesus as a white European man when he was anything but? He was a Jew, from the Middle East. He was a man of color! I much rather see a depiction of a black Jesus, than a white one
Does God despise those who identify as LGBTQA+ (I apologize if this is not the accurate acronym) or does he despise those who oppress them, dehumanize them? (The latter I believe to be true)
Does God hate me because I’ve had many sexual partners, women included, done drugs, smoked cigarettes, gotten black out drunk, been apart of a few drug deals in my past? Or does he grieve that I went through these experiences because at the heart of it I was feeling lost, insecure, and unworthy? (I believe the latter to be true)
Would God rather you go through an existential crisis and come out on the other side concluding that he’s not real, or follow a religion blindly because you’re too afraid to question and do otherwise?
At least the former is honest and real…
Is there a difference between following a God-man with a heart for saving humanity, whose seeking the will of God – and Christianity? (I 100% say yes!)
Is Jesus disappointed in the majority of those who call themselves “Christian,” but practice false humility, self-righteousness, asceticism, and legalism? (I believe this is a Hell Yes)
Questioning…..
I drink and smoke – am I the “worst of sinners” because of it? (NO)
Should I be able to wear the sleaziest thing I can find without the fear of being objectified or raped? (Fuck yes)
Whoops, there I go being scandalous again. That’s not very Christian is it? Good thing I don’t identify as a Christian anymore…
Should the western church apologize for being stale, mostly white run, whitewashed (brainwashed)? Yes, yes they should. No wonder people want nothing to do with you, and that’s coming from someone who loves Jesus. But I can’t stand you….
“I like your Christ… but I don’t like your Christian…”
Christians – did you guys forget that when God created the world, it wasn’t complete until he created woman?
So what the fuck’s up with sexism then?…
White people, white church – do you think anyone has time to be your token fill in the blank_______- (Black, Hispanic, Asian, Indian, Native American, Jewish, Arabic, list goes on…) friend? So you can claim that you’re “diversified”? No one’s got time for this nonsense!
Wait a minute, am I that token person for some of my white friends? Oh shit…
Or do my white girlfriends like me because I can blend in? Talk like them, act like them, straighten my hair and look like them… oh and wear Carhartt, can’t forget the Carhartt now…
Questioning…..
Do I remind my white husband that this world, this life, was made for him, to appease him and his kind (blonde hair, blue eyes, whiter than wonder bread, tall, Christian)? Yes I do, all the fucking time. I tell him to not forget, not take it for granted, and to use his position to help others. And I will say the same to my half white sons. They will grow up knowing what’s up.
White privilege is REAL!! While this is not a question it needs to be stated. Shit, I’d be lying if I didn’t think I’ve benefited from white privilege because I’m light skinned. SO FUCKED UP
“There goes that pasty Puerto Rican…”
“Walking, talking, acting like a white girl…”
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t question, if that was part of why my husband married me. I know when he showed someone a picture of me very tan, they asked
“Is she black?”
At the time we laughed it off… but why is that funny? What if I was black, would that have changed anything? Maybe I should find a way to permanently change my skin dark brown- black and see if that changes the way I am seen as a Latina woman…
Questioning…..
Do I have more white friends than friends from other ethnicities? (Unfortunately yes I do)
I need to diversify… I confessed this publicly on a stage not long ago
Do I feel whitewashed? (YES. I. FUCKING. HATE. IT.)
My husband and I purposely chose to live somewhere where our family would be the minority. A place stereotyped for being “dangerous,” “run down”, “impoverished.” The truth is, I’ve never felt more at home; I’ve never felt more community and belonging.
Is it better to spend your life working and working and working, finally dying from the exertion and then working some more, or taking a fucking break and focusing on what actually matters- family, friends, community, connections, neighbors, missions, travel, advocacy?
Questioning….
Isn’t it interesting how when people die, so many people have all these amazing, wonderful things to say about the dead? How their character was great; how deeply they impacted the community, and how much they’ll be missed.
I wonder if those people felt that loved and cared for when they were alive? Sadly, we tend to tell people how we truly feel about them during times of turmoil. Maybe if we did a better job at consistently reaching out, the turmoil wouldn’t exist to begin with?
Questioning….
How many of you were strippers, and drug users, drug dealers, pornography addicts, promiscuous, questioned your sexuality, entertained the idea of abortion out of fear, have cheated, gone to jail or prison, maybe even have murdered, but now you’re a
“reformed Christian,” holier than thou,
and judge those very same people?
You know that many a priest, and ministers, and youth pastors have been discovered as pedophiles, rapists, and sex traffickers, right?
Holier than thou? Please… I wouldn’t be so proud of your religion right now…
Questioning….
You know what everyone’s problem is? We want to explain ourselves…
Justify….
Criticize…
Give our unwanted opinions and thoughts…
Troll….
Judge something that we have never had to go through..
Have you ever had an unplanned pregnancy scare? Then don’t judge abortion. Especially if you’re a man, because she didn’t climb on top of herself and get herself pregnant.
If you’re White, are you ever going to be Black? Asian? Hispanic? Arabic? A person of color? Then don’t speak for these people and act like racism doesn’t exist. Especially if you’re a white man… my white husband already knows…
At the end of the day, sorry would go a long way….
Questioning….
I feel like my faith (in God and humanity) is being tested and refined.
Christians, you might be pissed that I wrote this… but why don’t you turn your focus inward and ponder what you guys must of done to cause a once Christian woman to feel this way? To denounce Christianity? Maybe somewhere in there you can muster up an apology… no one needs more arguments, pride, stubbornness, criticisms, judgments, justifications…
“Take the plank out of your own eye”….
To the Church: You would do well to take a note from Daniel and Ezra from the Bible, and take on some communal guilt and apologize… apologize for the religiosity you place above God that deters people from Jesus…
To white people: you would do well to take on some communal guilt and apologize… apologize for the ways minorities have been poorly treated for centuries by the white dominant culture
Sorry would go a long way…
I wonder if people came from a posture of love and care- in that special way we care for newborn babies – instead of rigidity and rules, if people would finally understand the love of Christ; the fact that he died for you, just for you… because he loves you.
Questioning….
Have I offended you with this post? Is your heart pumping faster than normal? Do you want to have words with me? Good. At least I elicited something real…
And here’s another thought to leave Christians with…
If this is Satan’s world then is it possible that he’s encouraging the continuation of Christianity, seeing how far it’s fallen from what Christ actually stood for? After all he is the antichrist, so if Christianity has become the opposite of Christ, well then Christians are doing all the work for him, aren’t they?
I’ve been a prisoner to my OCD mind for over 2 decades, shaped by the influences of Catholicism and non- denominational Christianity; stuck in legalism, and self-condemnation. Afraid to ask questions.
Now I’m saying screw it, and I feel the freedom to question.
So I’m questioning…. everything