Unscathed
I climb, I claw But slip and fall So stuck in the muck, Not going down, not going up. Suffering in silence No one sees the subtle violence- When the thoughts start creeping in, Like the minor notes on a violin; And those that choose to ignore, Sickening to its core. So I pour and […]
[Internal] Dialogue I
Are you difficult to love? I ask this of myself all the time…. I believe my answer is yes. I heard a preacher once say that you will never know how to love difficult people until you realize that you’re one of them.. The audacity! but clearly I’m up and arms because, well, it’s true. […]
2:13 🐍
2:13, I would say happy birthday, To they who shall not be named. It’s been 2 years|3 months since my last text, 2 years|3 months since you ghosted, Decade long friendship, (wow) Crazy how your disregard was so flagrant. God I wish I could let it go, Give myself the closure I long for… It […]
This is [Un] fair…..
…. “All is fair in love and war,” Sounds like someone who’s never loved before.I love you, believe me I do,But I have a feeling babe, You love me more than I do. The truth is I don’t think I deserve you, I never have; But I always felt we were part of God’s plan. But now I’m questioning it all;Like […]
Not a Player
…. And I’m still not a player in the game of life, Where strife is caused by the slow twist of the knife; Where resources get plugged, And problems are swept under the rug. Where Silence trumps Justice. Where honesty stales, And relationships fail; Where grief is strong, And recovery is long. Where I wishfully […]
Love is [a] Fair
Hello friends! Long time no talk… Re-entering the narrative ( a little writer’s humor 😉 ) with my new series “Love is [a] fair.” This series will chronicle my personal and paired at times with a professional take, on love and relationships- romantic, familial, friendships. This will take an honest look at the hardships that […]
Pretty Girls 🥀
Big girls in the back and pretty thin girls in the front, After all that’s what the world says is pretty, Based on ever changing Eurocentric standards. 🥀 Imma big girl- Big butt, big thighs, weighing 185 Big stomach from being postpartum twice Big hair, big eyes, big smile, Which means I gotta BIG MOUTH And […]
Questioning….
No filter, no shame… and I dare you to say you don’t question the same… Would I rather hang out with atheists, agnostics, non-christians, or a flat out stranger than the Christians of today? Yes I would. And I bet Jesus would too. As a matter of fact when he walked this earth that’s […]
Mental Health Series: Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
..quiet. quiet. Quiet. Quiet. QUIET. LEAVE ME ALONE! This is a common sentiment with Obsessive- Compulsive Disorder, or O C D. Much like anxiety, OCD is a term that gets thrown around nonchalantly. People often say “ I’m so OCD” when they fixate on details, or need things organized a certain way. As someone […]
Mental Health Series: Anxiety
A N X I E T Y. Most people don’t even bat an eye when they hear this term- its become so mainstream and normalized. Although many people experience some form of anxiety- whether it be with a looming work deadline or trying to pay bills on time- there is more to anxiety than meets […]
Mental Health Series: An Overview
All of my blogs up until this point, have touched on the vast subject of mental health in some capacity. However, I am launching a series focusing on a few specific mental health disorders/conditions, giving a more in depth look at what each entail. This series is very important to me because sometimes mental health […]
The Exception
Today I wake up, Is it going to be me? Will I be the one on your t.v. screen? Sickness, death or harm, Is all I think about when you’re in my arms. The anxiety is crippling, But it’s better than vulnerability, It’s got to be. Laughing, smiles; pure joy, I wish […]
The Problem with Pride
So ironically, I lost control worse this week than last week when I published my “Lose Control” blog post, lol. Each week of the “stay at home, stay safe” or “ shelter in place” order, whichever term you prefer, has come with different challenges. Ever since the extension of this order to April 30th in […]
Lose Control
I hit a wall this week. I did my best to stay positive with everything going on in the world right now; but inevitably, I hit that wall I so desperately was trying to steer away from. I didn’t handle that well- AT ALL. Every scream of my child was like nails on the chalkboard. […]
Gratitude
Day 9 of #SocialDistancing / self-quarantine got me feeling like… … Anybody with me? I just wanted to break the ice for a minute. But in all seriousness this is a challenging time for everyone, from being or knowing a health care professional who is working on the front lines of the Covid-19/Coronavirus […]
Personality [500 & 1 cont’d]
Before we can figure what we are good at and how to pursue those passions, it is helpful to know what our personality type is. I used to mentally roll my eyes when people would discuss the latest personality test they took and describe all the personality types. To me, I thought I’m not going […]
500 & 1
In the spirit of clapping yourself on- what are some things that you are really good at? Like I talked about in my last post, we often focus on what other people are good at but down play our own skills and talents. I think part of why we do this is because we have […]
Clap On
Part of why we’re “not fine” all the time is because in one way or another we feel that we’re “not good enough”. Or worse… we compare. The saying has always been that the root of all evil is money. Well, I believe in the 21st century, the root of most evil is comparison. Think […]
“I’m [NOT] Fine”
“How are you?” “I’m fine.” This interaction is as natural as breathing. How often do we lie to ourselves and others by saying “we’re fine,” when we know that we are the opposite? A more accurate statement, or sometimes exclamation, would be “I’m NOT fine!” However, sometimes people can pick up the “not” in the […]
Intro to Pressed
Purpose… this is an important word, we all want to know what- is our purpose… Let me introduce myself, and share a little bit about me and the purpose of starting this blog. My name is Amanda, and I am newly 30 years old; I have enjoyed the last three decades of my life with […]
Categories
- Love/ relationships (6)
- Mental Health (9)
- Poetry / Lament (10)
- Purpose (7)
- Self-Care (3)
Categories
- Love/ relationships (6)
- Mental Health (9)
- Poetry / Lament (10)
- Purpose (7)
- Self-Care (3)
Unscathed
I climb, I claw But slip and fall So stuck in the muck, Not going down, not going up. Suffering in silence No one sees the subtle violence- When the thoughts start creeping in, Like the minor notes on a violin; And those that choose to ignore, Sickening to its core. So I pour and […]
[Internal] Dialogue I
Are you difficult to love? I ask this of myself all the time…. I believe my answer is yes. I heard a preacher once say that you will never know how to love difficult people until you realize that you’re one of them.. The audacity! but clearly I’m up and arms because, well, it’s true. […]
2:13 🐍
2:13, I would say happy birthday, To they who shall not be named. It’s been 2 years|3 months since my last text, 2 years|3 months since you ghosted, Decade long friendship, (wow) Crazy how your disregard was so flagrant. God I wish I could let it go, Give myself the closure I long for… It […]
This is [Un] fair…..
…. “All is fair in love and war,” Sounds like someone who’s never loved before.I love you, believe me I do,But I have a feeling babe, You love me more than I do. The truth is I don’t think I deserve you, I never have; But I always felt we were part of God’s plan. But now I’m questioning it all;Like […]
Not a Player
…. And I’m still not a player in the game of life, Where strife is caused by the slow twist of the knife; Where resources get plugged, And problems are swept under the rug. Where Silence trumps Justice. Where honesty stales, And relationships fail; Where grief is strong, And recovery is long. Where I wishfully […]
Love is [a] Fair
Hello friends! Long time no talk… Re-entering the narrative ( a little writer’s humor 😉 ) with my new series “Love is [a] fair.” This series will chronicle my personal and paired at times with a professional take, on love and relationships- romantic, familial, friendships. This will take an honest look at the hardships that […]
Pretty Girls 🥀
Big girls in the back and pretty thin girls in the front, After all that’s what the world says is pretty, Based on ever changing Eurocentric standards. 🥀 Imma big girl- Big butt, big thighs, weighing 185 Big stomach from being postpartum twice Big hair, big eyes, big smile, Which means I gotta BIG MOUTH And […]
Questioning….
No filter, no shame… and I dare you to say you don’t question the same… Would I rather hang out with atheists, agnostics, non-christians, or a flat out stranger than the Christians of today? Yes I would. And I bet Jesus would too. As a matter of fact when he walked this earth that’s […]
Mental Health Series: Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
..quiet. quiet. Quiet. Quiet. QUIET. LEAVE ME ALONE! This is a common sentiment with Obsessive- Compulsive Disorder, or O C D. Much like anxiety, OCD is a term that gets thrown around nonchalantly. People often say “ I’m so OCD” when they fixate on details, or need things organized a certain way. As someone […]
Mental Health Series: Anxiety
A N X I E T Y. Most people don’t even bat an eye when they hear this term- its become so mainstream and normalized. Although many people experience some form of anxiety- whether it be with a looming work deadline or trying to pay bills on time- there is more to anxiety than meets […]
Mental Health Series: An Overview
All of my blogs up until this point, have touched on the vast subject of mental health in some capacity. However, I am launching a series focusing on a few specific mental health disorders/conditions, giving a more in depth look at what each entail. This series is very important to me because sometimes mental health […]
The Exception
Today I wake up, Is it going to be me? Will I be the one on your t.v. screen? Sickness, death or harm, Is all I think about when you’re in my arms. The anxiety is crippling, But it’s better than vulnerability, It’s got to be. Laughing, smiles; pure joy, I wish […]
The Problem with Pride
So ironically, I lost control worse this week than last week when I published my “Lose Control” blog post, lol. Each week of the “stay at home, stay safe” or “ shelter in place” order, whichever term you prefer, has come with different challenges. Ever since the extension of this order to April 30th in […]
Lose Control
I hit a wall this week. I did my best to stay positive with everything going on in the world right now; but inevitably, I hit that wall I so desperately was trying to steer away from. I didn’t handle that well- AT ALL. Every scream of my child was like nails on the chalkboard. […]
Gratitude
Day 9 of #SocialDistancing / self-quarantine got me feeling like… … Anybody with me? I just wanted to break the ice for a minute. But in all seriousness this is a challenging time for everyone, from being or knowing a health care professional who is working on the front lines of the Covid-19/Coronavirus […]
Personality [500 & 1 cont’d]
Before we can figure what we are good at and how to pursue those passions, it is helpful to know what our personality type is. I used to mentally roll my eyes when people would discuss the latest personality test they took and describe all the personality types. To me, I thought I’m not going […]
500 & 1
In the spirit of clapping yourself on- what are some things that you are really good at? Like I talked about in my last post, we often focus on what other people are good at but down play our own skills and talents. I think part of why we do this is because we have […]
Clap On
Part of why we’re “not fine” all the time is because in one way or another we feel that we’re “not good enough”. Or worse… we compare. The saying has always been that the root of all evil is money. Well, I believe in the 21st century, the root of most evil is comparison. Think […]
“I’m [NOT] Fine”
“How are you?” “I’m fine.” This interaction is as natural as breathing. How often do we lie to ourselves and others by saying “we’re fine,” when we know that we are the opposite? A more accurate statement, or sometimes exclamation, would be “I’m NOT fine!” However, sometimes people can pick up the “not” in the […]
Intro to Pressed
Purpose… this is an important word, we all want to know what- is our purpose… Let me introduce myself, and share a little bit about me and the purpose of starting this blog. My name is Amanda, and I am newly 30 years old; I have enjoyed the last three decades of my life with […]